How Do I 'Feel' My Connection with Source?

How do I ‘feel’ my connection with Source?

By being willing to FEEL ALL MY FEELINGS!

My true feelings are beyond what I was taught and conditioned to think of as ‘feelings’. Now when I am feeling a true feeling it has a palpable sensation of flow, vibration and brilliant light-filled aliveness. Feeling the realness is experiencing the presence of my own resonance.
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There was a time when I did not want to feel. I was afraid of being hurt again. I thought, ‘if I do not feel, I will stop my – pain’.   I would avoid my feelings by pushing them away and retreating into my head. I would make up a story, a drama which I believed was real. I would get so caught up in the story and its ‘emotions’ I would think I was ‘feeling’.  I was actually in a disempowering emotional state.  This learned strategy served only to move me away from my real feelings and into thinking feelings, not actually feeling them. In my pattern of telling a story and thinking my feelings both would persist.  I could not find a sense of release and much needed relief – the expansion or opening in which my perceived issue could resolve into greater awareness. For a long time, this pattern caused me – to move away from experiencing my true feelings, while thinking I was feeling them.  In my healing process, I learned that thinking feelings instead of truly feeling them recycles in a repetitive pattern. I would think the ‘perception of a feeling’ was the same thing as ‘feeling the feeling’. Instead of feeling, I was only engaging in ideas of things, both negative and positive.

In her book, and …, Anamika writes :
“When truly feeling we are connecting with the energy of an emotion. Then feelings move through us with relative ease and rapidity. The beautiful energy of real emotion moves, breathes, and is alive. It’s an entirely different sensation than what’s produced by mental ‘emotions’ or drama.
Consciously feeling feelings is not terrifying. Even real intense grief, fear, and dread feel good, as does excitement, when we let ourselves feel them. Fear is not bad and excitement is not good.”
For me, when I am not willing to feel my true feelings I contract, shut down, get walled off and swim in intense overwhelm and dramatically overreact. At the same time, I build walls and shut out people, places and situations necessary to my wellbeing. I reaffirm with my self-talk, ‘I cannot help how I feel’, only perpetuating my disempowering emotional state.  In this pattern, I activate many stress responses in my body – Ugh! – and stress responses in my relationships. 

Now that I know this, I am willingly to slow down and take time to drop out of my head into my body and heart, the spaces of true feeling(s), accepting and allowing the feeling to flow. Emotions like fear, anger, and sorrow are natural emotions very different from disempowering emotional states of outrage, depression or anxiety.

Every emotion, sensation and true feeling is valuable. There is no order of importance to our feelings. All of them are of equal importance when we allow ourselves to feel them! Feeling my full range of emotions empowers and deepens my connection to Source.
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To support my experience of ‘feeling’ I make sacred time alone to be with my feelings a priority just as I make a priority – meditating, exercising, time in nature or an enjoyable evening with a beloved.
To learn more about how to support your experience of ‘feeling’ CLICK HERE

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