"Do you want to trust that story?" asked a coach of mine.

 I was in a session, exploring the story and beliefs I hold on to about "masculine energy and how the men in my life show up". The story I was telling about myself and my partner was particularly persistent. And when its told I feel unsupported, closed off and unloved. But for many reasons, the story is difficult to resist.

You may be confused. What do I mean by story? And how do I tell a story about myself and someone else that leaves me feeling so bad?

The stories about ourselves and others often center around developmental life experiences with the men and woman who cared for us and had a hand in shaping our perspectives about ourselves and other.  We internalized these stories and add meaning.  They become our root stories about love and form our core relationship beliefs.  And subconsciously we look for the evidence of their truth in our closest relationship(s) through all stages of intimacy. And what we expect or look for we will always find!  The meaning can be positive or negative.

Some of the negative ones that I had were:

• I am ugly and unlovable.  
• Men can't be trusted.
• No matter hard I try I will never be good enough, smart enough....
• If I stand my ground and have boundaries, my loved one will get angry, minimize, send me away or leave me.
• My sexual appetite is bad.
• I am too much to handle, overly emotional.

I projected these core beliefs onto my partners and looked for the evidence that they were true. And what I looked for I always found in an experience that erupted between us and proved me right.

• I was unlovable.
• Men couldn't be trusted.
• I wasn't good enough or smart enough.
• Standing my ground angered my men.
• My sexual appetite was bad.
• I was overly emotional and too much to handle.

Uhg!

We all have root stories and core beliefs about ourselves and others and many are supportive. But when the detrimental ones are so strong that they're hard to resist we can benefit from some broader perspective.  And in my case, compassion too as I am very hard on myself.

It was helpful for me to speak to my coach, he challenged me to question the root of my story, my core beliefs and how they were limiting my ability to experience the deeper connection and support I was craving from myself, with my partner, and all masculine energy in my life.

He asked me if my story was aligned with my deepest desires and intentions to grow and pleasurably expand in my relationship to my beloved?

No!

My story was competing with my deepest desire to liberate myself from sexual inhibitions, self-judgment and childhood conditioning with my beloved.  He invited me further to explore why I wanted to liberate myself. I remembered, I have a burning desire to know myself fully expressed, full of untamed wild potential and joy!

This was challenging work for me as I had to accept that I had unhelpful stories and beliefs and they were limiting the potential of my relationship bliss.

This was all on me and had nothing to do with partner!

My partner knew of my desires and was doing his best in becoming the man he wanted to be in growth and pleasurable expansion. That's his work!

My work was to be opening into the fully expressed woman that I desired to be and in this case writing new stories about the masculine energy that aligned with my untamed wild potential and joy in relationship with my Beloved! <3

So, I ask you:

• Do you have a burning desire to know yourself fully expressed, full of untamed wild potential and joy?
• Or some other burning desire?
• Do you have detrimental stories about your relationship that are so compelling they are hard to resist and sabotaging you?
• Could you benefit from broader perspective and support in identifying your root story and core beliefs and how they are limiting your relationship and competing with what you really desire?
• Do you want to learn how to shifts beliefs and script your new story that aligns with the Love, Passion and Pleasure you crave?

If you answered yes to any or all questions email me now for your complimentary relationship breakthrough session!

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To Your Enduring Love and Bliss!

Cheryl